钥匙在窗前的阳光下 (1) --- 最后的信

                                                     钥匙在窗台上
                                                     钥匙在窗前的阳光下
                                                     我带着钥匙
                                                     结婚吧，艾伦，不要吸毒
                                                     钥匙在窗柵里
                                                     钥匙在窗前的阳光下

"The key is in the window, the key is in the sunlight at the window – I have the key – Get married Allen don't take drugs – the key is in the bars, in the sunlight in the window".

"God's informers come to my bed, and God himself I saw in the sky. The sunshine showed too, a key on the side of the window for me to get out. The yellow of the sunshine, also showed the key on the side of the window."

这是金斯堡在他母亲去世后收到的她寄来的信。信写于她去世的前一天，她的一生住在精神病疗养院里的时间很多。最后一次，金斯堡去看望她，她冷冷的望着他很久，说：“你不是艾伦”。护士推了她出去。